Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
And as I climb into an empty bed
Oh well, enough said
I know it's over – still I cling
I don't know where else I can go
Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head
See, the sea wants to take me
The knife wants to slit me
Do you think you can help me?
Sad veiled bride, please be happy
Handsome groom, give her room
Loud, loutish lover, treat her kindly
Though she needs you more than she loves you
And I know it's over – still I cling
I don't know where else I can go
Over and over and over and over
Over and over
I know it's over, and it never really began
But in my heart it was so real
oh mother, I can feel the night slipping from my hands
I can't breath, maybe it's a part of their contrivance
the sable wind passing through the window,
the fog whispering away;
shall the night pass, maybe what I longed for will finally condense to me
oh, the light settles like dew
mother shall help, maybe it's a part of their contrivance?
Now, you must be thinking how and why this is related to whatever happened, which is fair, but let me explain, you'll get it.
When I wrote this poem, I wasn’t really trying to retell anyone’s story, but after thinking about it, it strangely reminds me of what happened with you and her. The way things played out, your love for her, the parents finding out, and how everything was resolved by your mother and her mothers' chat on the phone, kind of echoes through the poem. It feels like there’s this sense of destiny, or what I called ‘their contrivance,’ or just "God's destiny" shaping everything in the background. Even though I didn’t mean to capture that directly, it’s ironic how the poem fits the situation, almost like it was fated to come out that way.